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Assalammualaikum & Salam MaalHijrah..

Lambat sehari dah wish kita..
Semenjak kerja ni, days become more tiring
Dlu kemain dying to work..malaih study
nak keja cepat, nak kawin cepat2,nak duit sendiri
but when times goes on
everything plan change
Why?
Let me explain


Salah sorg supplier aku da timbulkan persoalan
dia tanya macam ni la
"U taw x napa waktu belajar u xstress mcm masa kja
sekarang u kerja u stress kan
jumpa macam2 jenis org smua pakat jaga diri sndiri saja" 
Aku trdiam.
Then dia teruskan kata2 dia, sebab dlu lu org maw abes kan duit saja
Sekarang u keja u maw cari duit
semua org maw cari duit maa..
itu sebab semua org banyak pentingkan diri ma.
dalam hati ckp "hmm..betoi jgk kan pa dia ckp ni"
Skg baru tau susah payah nak cari sesuap nasi
ai sheh 




Everything yg aku plan not everything the output not perfectly as what I want
Firstly, I want to work at KL
why? why?
Reason dia simple, more opportunity to career development
my interest more on audit
audit firm kat kedah ni smua kecik2
mana senang nak masuk
kat penang plak 
big 4 kebanyakan mana da kosong
Tapi memandangkan proses intrview mmerlukan aku p ke KL
rasa macam malaih la plak
Sebab interview belum tentu dapat
kos nak p ke KL perlu dkira
tambahan dulu xdak transport sendiri lagi
So aku decide keja sini ja dulu
Alhamdulillah 
diterima masuk ke sebuah company di kedah ni

Setiap kali da prsoalan
how work?
Ok x keja??
Answer always the same
bole laa..
It quite stressful for me at beginning
for me..xbole org cakap dengan nada yg tinggi
tba2 nak jadi emotional..first second third time
quite emotional n stress..bencinyaa keja nii!!
tapi sekarang more kental mungkin
Sebab jaga account payable
lambat sikit bayaq supplier dah bising..
paling parah emonya bila kena marah bukan sebab salah kita
it is good training for me

Besides, before this my plan is to getting married early
nearly to accept someone proposal
then i change my crazy mind
reason?
i'm not fefeling nk kawin dah for this time being
sbb aku realised marriage not a race
before i believe "cinta boleh dsemai"
Just accept someone who love u, & want to take care of you
 it more than enough
aisheh



tapi even how hard trying, the feeling doesn't come
perasaan tu xbole dipaksa utk hadir
ntah tba2 rasa dah lupa apa perasaan cinta
so tu yg mmbuatkan persepsi aku berubah kot




let me just become mr. rilakuma's
adoi merapu daa


Death note : It really nice when u having friends and boss who like to eat.
I thought my weight gain, however i loss some weight
it impact of stressful situation maybe
May Allah always ease my job..my path
InsyaAllah

Allah is the best planner
Keep it in your mind Mastura :)




























Touched


Something happen to me recently
most of person who close to me
said they dream about me
something bad happen
before i speak out my problems
is it some kind of telepathy?
lols

but still this make me touched
they can feel my hardness

much love
love all of u so much
honestly speak i'm nothing without u




weii! final just around the corner
butterflies do not enter my stomach yet
still chilling
test's result not so good
ohmai!
ohmai!
ohmai!
ok nak tido
nite..nite
(prkara slalu buat time stress selain makan)

Pray my success and last sem guys!