Hanya Mainan Perasaan

Assalammualaikum & Salam MaalHijrah..

Lambat sehari dah wish kita..

Semenjak kerja ni, days become more tiring

Dlu kemain dying to work..malaih study

nak keja cepat, nak kawin cepat2,nak duit sendiri

but when times goes on

everything plan change

Why?

Let me explain

Salah sorg supplier aku da timbulkan persoalan

dia tanya macam ni la

"U taw x napa waktu belajar u xstress mcm masa kja

sekarang u kerja u stress kan

jumpa macam2 jenis org smua pakat jaga diri sndiri saja" 

Aku trdiam.

Then dia teruskan kata2 dia, sebab dlu lu org maw abes kan duit saja

Sekarang u keja u maw cari duit

semua org maw cari duit maa..

itu sebab semua org banyak pentingkan diri ma.

dalam hati ckp "hmm..betoi jgk kan pa dia ckp ni"

Skg baru tau susah payah nak cari sesuap nasi

ai sheh 

Everything yg aku plan not everything the output not perfectly as what I want

Firstly, I want to work at KL

why? why?

Reason dia simple, more opportunity to career development

my interest more on audit

audit firm kat kedah ni smua kecik2

mana senang nak masuk

kat penang plak 

big 4 kebanyakan mana da kosong

Tapi memandangkan proses intrview mmerlukan aku p ke KL

rasa macam malaih la plak

Sebab interview belum tentu dapat

kos nak p ke KL perlu dkira

tambahan dulu xdak transport sendiri lagi

So aku decide keja sini ja dulu

Alhamdulillah 

diterima masuk ke sebuah company di kedah ni

Setiap kali da prsoalan

how work?

Ok x keja??

Answer always the same

bole laa..

It quite stressful for me at beginning

for me..xbole org cakap dengan nada yg tinggi

tba2 nak jadi emotional..first second third time

quite emotional n stress..bencinyaa keja nii!!

tapi sekarang more kental mungkin

Sebab jaga account payable

lambat sikit bayaq supplier dah bising..

paling parah emonya bila kena marah bukan sebab salah kita

it is good training for me

Besides, before this my plan is to getting married early

nearly to accept someone proposal

then i change my crazy mind

reason?

i'm not fefeling nk kawin dah for this time being

sbb aku realised marriage not a race

before i believe "cinta boleh dsemai"

Just accept someone who love u, & want to take care of you

 it more than enough

aisheh

tapi even how hard trying, the feeling doesn't come

perasaan tu xbole dipaksa utk hadir

ntah tba2 rasa dah lupa apa perasaan cinta

so tu yg mmbuatkan persepsi aku berubah kot

let me just become mr. rilakuma's

adoi merapu daa

Death note : It really nice when u having friends and boss who like to eat.

I thought my weight gain, however i loss some weight

it impact of stressful situation maybe

May Allah always ease my job..my path

InsyaAllah

Allah is the best planner

Keep it in your mind Mastura :)